Words of A Cookie

What am I going to do?
8:19 p.m. - Saturday, Sept. 23, 2006

What am I going to do? I mean really? I am about to lose my job I mean it's pretty much already gone. I have to find me another one and soon. So if someone out there knows of a good paying part-time job that's close to 63rd or king dr. please let me know.

I had to go back to working nights which I hate by the way. I have to pick up my son at 10:00 at night then take him home and do homework. Which means my baby is not going to get the sleep that he needs.

I hate this I really hate this why couldn't his dad step up and be a damn man? Why do I have to do all this on my own? It's hard and I'm tired. Not mention when I'm sick which is a lot. What the hell man! Everytime I look up I am matched up with somebody who isn't right for me. This is just so aguh! I can't even think of words and for those who know me knows that like never happens. I just wish I could be free to be me.

I know this is more than likely wrong to say but I think all the time about how it would be if I didn't have a child. What would I be doing and where I would be. The fun I could have. I love my baby though and now that I have him I don't know what I would do with out him. I didn't have him by myself you know I shouldn't have to raise him alone. Ok I didn't mean to go off the handle but I had to get that out.

Don't think wrong of me

going out of my mind

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	I AM... My name is Cookie and I'm 23 years old I have a three year old son and am always, I mean always on the move. I belive that we as women need to know what we need and want then go for it. etc) I'M FEELING PLAYLIST Kindred 'Every song they make' Floetry Every song they touch Band 'song' Band 'song' BUDDIES %%buddy list%%	What am I going to do? 8:19 p.m. - Saturday, Sept. 23, 2006 What am I going to do? I mean really? I am about to lose my job I mean it's pretty much already gone. I have to find me another one and soon. So if someone out there knows of a good paying part-time job that's close to 63rd or king dr. please let me know. I had to go back to working nights which I hate by the way. I have to pick up my son at 10:00 at night then take him home and do homework. Which means my baby is not going to get the sleep that he needs. I hate this I really hate this why couldn't his dad step up and be a damn man? Why do I have to do all this on my own? It's hard and I'm tired. Not mention when I'm sick which is a lot. What the hell man! Everytime I look up I am matched up with somebody who isn't right for me. This is just so aguh! I can't even think of words and for those who know me knows that like never happens. I just wish I could be free to be me. I know this is more than likely wrong to say but I think all the time about how it would be if I didn't have a child. What would I be doing and where I would be. The fun I could have. I love my baby though and now that I have him I don't know what I would do with out him. I didn't have him by myself you know I shouldn't have to raise him alone. Ok I didn't mean to go off the handle but I had to get that out. Don't think wrong of me going out of my mind Cookie � \| �